So, I was waiting to post this until things were final… then everything happened and a week later here I am finally posting it. The truth is… I’ve always been a small town girl on the outside. I was born, raised, and lived within a 15 mile radius my whole life (minus my three years at school). So for me to think about moving 6 hours away from home – on my own – without knowing a sole – was kind of terrifying… even though it’s something I’ve wanted to do for so long.
Small towns are nice. You know everything about the area. You are comfortable but comfortable is boring. Small towns don’t have opportunities and knowing everything about an area gets old, fast. I’ve really pushed myself outside the box this past year. I left my full time job, found a new great job and ended up leaving that due to a hostel environment. That left me with a part time job and my etsy shop. Although a lot of people probably see this as a negative, I didn’t usually. It is what I needed. I needed that time to really find myself after going through such a horrible time at the new job I had which turned into a nightmare. To put it simply the people there deflated me, completely. I was always top of my game in the retail world and knew what to do and when. The travel industry wasn’t much different but I overlooked a big aspect of that job… commission. I learned that old school commission based sales people are disgusting. I guess everyone has to learn things the hard way sometimes. Oh well… I left deflated but I now realize I’m not the real person suffering from that experience and that I am better than that individual mentally and in so many other ways now.
Anyways, that experience let me figure out a lot and I might not have completely figured myself out but I know myself a lot more than I did a year ago. My job working as a travel consultant pushed me beyond my limits (in a good way at first). After two weeks at the job, I went to training over 4 hours away from home for two weeks. I lived in a hotel with 20+ other strangers including a roommate I had never met. (Yes, in ways it was like an awesome mini season of the old school Real World…) It was weird but turned out to be one amazing experience. A few months later, I was off to Jamaica for work, by myself. Up until that moment I had never traveled alone… and definitely not on a plane. Zanex in hand, I boarded my early morning flight by myself and off I went. Five days later, I returned home feeling more alive than ever! I still reminisce about that trip and hope that some day I can visit that beautiful country again!
Isn’t it weird how experiences that you are most afraid of change your life in such a crazy way. I can only hope that this next step in my life will be the same way. If it is even half as amazing as going to Jamaica or going away for a two week training… I will be beyond happy and one lucky person.
With that said, I am officially in Connecticut and will be starting my new job at LUSH cosmetics next week! I can not express how excited I am about this opportunity. I’m terrified but excited. I can not wait to explore this new place I will call home, meet the people and dive into a new job for a company I look up to.